This morning I had to get an epidural in my neck - I'm not a stranger to epidural,s (mid/lower back) but this was my first neck epidural and to say that my anxiety level was through the roof would be an enormous understatement. My anxiety level was then increased by the fact that once I was prepped and ready to go I found the Dr. was running a little behind and I would have to wait a little longer. I sent a whisper out to the Cosmos asking for confirmation that I was doing the right thing with this procedure and also asking for courage/support to make it through the procedure. What I got back was an annoying bird chirping on a tree branch right outside my window - my first thought was "great this is NOT calming me down at all". Then I heard multiple birds, and of course my thought then became "Oh Goodie" more birds NOT. I closed my eyes, took a deep cleansing breath and then it HIT ME LIKE A FREIGHT TRAIN - the birds were singing TO ME. For the duration of my procedure I listened to those birds (approx. 45 minutes) and found that I was completely relaxed. Upon exiting the clinic I asked my ride to wheel me by the tree where my four little birds were singing their hearts out, and not being an "overly" emotional person I found that I had tears running down my face. I looked up at my birds and said "Thank You" for your songs today, as if they heard me all 4 birds took to the air to go help someone else in need for the day. In savoring my surroundings today I savored with my ears instead of my eyes. And again I will put out to the Cosmos, thank you for sending me 4 beautiful song birds.
