Every afternoon I give myself some me time. I sit down with a cuppa copious amounts of rich dark chocolate, and enjoy a good book .... ALL TO MYSELF!
I freakin' love it.
My favorite time of the day. Until today ...Today Gabe joined me.
He was all over me. Pulling at my arm, wanting to play. And I was getting mighty peeved off. I could feel all this rage and anger building inside. Thinking "this is my time. P**ss off".
I assure you. I am a great mother. But I'm also human. I think these thoughts often, but what I'm most proud of
(and where I do most my work daily) is not acting on these thoughts or living them out.
So there I was holding it all in as Gabe continued to climb all over me. Until. That voice. You know the voice. Stepped in. It said ...
"Nicole. Don't be so self centered, caring only about YOU and 'your time'. There are 24 hours in a day and who says this one is yours. Gabe needs you and in a year from now, 6 months from now, Even an hour from now, won't be needing your love and affection like he does now.
So give it.
Not when it's convenient and works for you, but when it's needed. Put down that book. Embrace him. Love him."
So I did. For almost an hour.
And. I still enjoyed my hot cuppa, my chocolate, and heck ... I was even reading books! Kids ones. But none the less books. And with a good story and moral! (Always a good moral or life lesson in every children's book have you noticed..?)
Anyway I took this photo to share with you and also to remind me to be less structured and routine. To go more with the flow of things and to allow life.
I can never plan life or ever think in any way that I can control it. This is a great lesson for me and something I am currently working on within myself.
It's hard. But baby steps. Baby steps, like letting go occasionally of my routine hour of sipping tea, eating chocolate, and reading. Because sometimes, sometimes life has something much better planned.
Like spending time, cuddles, and giggles with my youngest baby. Something I wanted to ignore and push away.
So glad I didn't. Because it fulfilled me far greater than having spent time alone reading ever could have.
I freakin' love it.
My favorite time of the day. Until today ...Today Gabe joined me.
He was all over me. Pulling at my arm, wanting to play. And I was getting mighty peeved off. I could feel all this rage and anger building inside. Thinking "this is my time. P**ss off".
I assure you. I am a great mother. But I'm also human. I think these thoughts often, but what I'm most proud of
(and where I do most my work daily) is not acting on these thoughts or living them out.So there I was holding it all in as Gabe continued to climb all over me. Until. That voice. You know the voice. Stepped in. It said ...
"Nicole. Don't be so self centered, caring only about YOU and 'your time'. There are 24 hours in a day and who says this one is yours. Gabe needs you and in a year from now, 6 months from now, Even an hour from now, won't be needing your love and affection like he does now.
So give it.
Not when it's convenient and works for you, but when it's needed. Put down that book. Embrace him. Love him."
So I did. For almost an hour.
And. I still enjoyed my hot cuppa, my chocolate, and heck ... I was even reading books! Kids ones. But none the less books. And with a good story and moral! (Always a good moral or life lesson in every children's book have you noticed..?)
Anyway I took this photo to share with you and also to remind me to be less structured and routine. To go more with the flow of things and to allow life.
I can never plan life or ever think in any way that I can control it. This is a great lesson for me and something I am currently working on within myself.
It's hard. But baby steps. Baby steps, like letting go occasionally of my routine hour of sipping tea, eating chocolate, and reading. Because sometimes, sometimes life has something much better planned.
Like spending time, cuddles, and giggles with my youngest baby. Something I wanted to ignore and push away.
So glad I didn't. Because it fulfilled me far greater than having spent time alone reading ever could have.
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- Posted by brindlegirl
- Feb 27, 2017
- Comments (11)
Readers Comments
autumnsky38 wrote: Thanks for sharing this-you're lovely and so is your little guy!
Ps i don't have kids, but i do have a dog and two cats. Just a few minutes ago, i was playing a game on my computer, and my kitty george decided it was time to play. He does this heart-rending, trilling sound as if to say, "come on, mommy, it's time for me! " and of course i usually can't resist him. But tonight i was into what i was doing and hushed him. Well, i peeked over at where he was sitting, and he had the cutest little almost pouty look on his face, so i gave in, laughed, and then played. He was so happy, and i had a similar feeling to yours when i realized that cats don't live nearly long enough, and i'd better enjoy him while he's here!
Ps i don't have kids, but i do have a dog and two cats. Just a few minutes ago, i was playing a game on my computer, and my kitty george decided it was time to play. He does this heart-rending, trilling sound as if to say, "come on, mommy, it's time for me! " and of course i usually can't resist him. But tonight i was into what i was doing and hushed him. Well, i peeked over at where he was sitting, and he had the cutest little almost pouty look on his face, so i gave in, laughed, and then played. He was so happy, and i had a similar feeling to yours when i realized that cats don't live nearly long enough, and i'd better enjoy him while he's here!
healingtree wrote: Loved this post. What a sensitive Mama you are!! Many parents of young children would enjoy reading it too, I am sure, and relate. Sadly, not all outcomes are as positive, but we can all learn new ways to be. We just need to be taught, and to take heed. You allowed yourself to learn, and it is just so wonderful that you did. Thank you so much. The little kid in me is soooooooo grateful. And the mother I am knows that you are right, there comes a time when we are no longer needed like that. Awesomeness all around!
splain wrote: Sometimes you just want that "me " time. But kids will be kids and as far as they see , you are the mama and they want your attention NOW. you are a really good mum
mindyjourney wrote: is important to make time to take time to be there :))). feel similar when neighbor children "disrupt" my quiet arbor time, until realizing how important time with them is! Well done, dear brindle.
Rajni wrote: Love for others did a great job, dear KS mother! Thanks for sharing
kjoyw wrote: There is no doubt, you are a great Mom!
Mish wrote: Love witnessing your growth through your open-hearted shares here. Also love your total honesty! You are wonderful!!😘😘😘
cabbage wrote: So glad you shared this----letting ourselves "go with the flow" and accepting the gifts as they come. So happy you got the lesson needed that day!
Pyronik wrote: (((Brindlegirl))) we are always learning & experiencing. Glad this lesson was.fun. for you :-)
Lilijourney wrote: Nicole you are truly an amazing Momma. Virtual hugs from me to you ✨💕✨💕🤗
