365 Small Acts of Kindness in Honor of My Missing Son, Benjamin Morse Archer
I'm still keeping my promise to do small acts of kindness for 365 days. I began on February 21st of this year, Ben's birthday. I haven't missed a day. The hardest part I knew would be documenting everything, and I was right. I was getting really overwhelmed and stressed by this. I didn't want to break my promise, so I compromised. I wouldn't write anything down or post blogs, but I would keep my promise by checking in with myself each night before bedtime.
At first, I felt like a complete cop-out. I had promised to do this publicly. I was so ashamed, I changed every blog that talked about Buttons for Benjamin into a private admin-view only. I don't think anyone was judging me though, except for me. I'll make those blogs public again as I get time this week.
It's been 102 days and 102 little lights (counting today). This makes me think of candles on a big birthday cake. I was also thinking that, if I had done SAOKs every single day since I joined KindSpring, there would be 1,675 candles on that cake! Hmm.
Since joining Kindsping, my kindness muscles have be
en growing. Even better, I stopped beating myself up for not being able to do everything I used to be able to do. By your compassion and kindness, I learned my small gifts, like these daily graphics, were helping in their own little way. I don't go to sleep now without making sure I did some small act of kindness that day. There have been days when it's simply me going to the mirror and saying, "You're strong and awesome and I am proud of you." That is a tough one for me, so I consider it an act of kindness when I can do it. Most days, I get to light the darkness at little for others around me, too.
Thank you for your prayers and good thoughts since Benjamin disappeared 3 years and 93 days ago. The love and kindness since day 1 have been my raft in the storm.
So grateful.
♥.
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- Posted by DotMatrix
- Dec 20, 2019
- Comments (10)
Readers Comments
gardengal10 wrote: You know, this is between you, yourself and Ben. Praying that you find peace and an answer. Hugs and more hugs.
Mish wrote: You are, and do, more than you give yourself credit for, dear Dot. Blessings of Light for you & Ben. 🙌ðŸ»
leoladyc728 wrote: blessings to you and Ben
DANCE wrote: You are an inspiration, bless u
kjoyw wrote: Blessings and prayers continue for you and for your dear Ben. ðŸ™ðŸ™ŒðŸ™
Kmbhai wrote: You are great..
Kmbhai wrote: We are with you.
mindyjourney wrote: Thank you for your beautiful reflective post, dear dot. Kindness has soooo many facets and faces...we are blessed to realize each!
Ruth Heyes wrote: Wow what a way
To honor your son. Blessings to u.
To honor your son. Blessings to u.
SeaMar67 wrote: Dear dot, i have not forgotten. In solidarity with you today, i do a small of act of kindness with great love.
