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The Grief of Loss and the Gift of Listening


--by divanurse, posted Sep 17, 2012

Today and every morning I wake up and think about the son that is no longer physically present in my life.

It is a mourning sickness that does not ever go away. No prayers, no bargaining with God, no amount of walking, talking to the psychiatrist, medication or hugging my dog eases the suffering.

Some days are easier than others. I am so tired of my coworkers telling me "to get over it, this will make you stronger."   Today, I called one of the members in the Survivors of Suicide group and we cried together.

I have been told tears are cleansing so I suppose it was a kindness that we cried and listened to each other. What a lovely gift to lean on one another. Sometimes just listening to someone's troubles is a gift in itself.

 

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jsmc10 wrote: *hugs* i lost my sister and we were so close, like twins, it still hurts, 10 years on, i hope that your support group helps and i am always here if you would like to chat :)
Bluxess wrote: I had been there once when I lost my bro to a road accident ... I couldn't bear the suffering ... nor could I find consolation like 'move on' ... 'let go' ... etc, appeasing ... I know its not anyone's fault but I also understood that there must be a different way to release it ... It took me 5 years to come to terms with his loss and the last year had been an active one. Last year, I took to traveling and doing ancestral rites for the departed soul in 3 different towns that do this ... When I could think I am able to do something grander for him, I felt comfortable ... A part of me was stricken with guilt that I could have helped him and I just couldn't forgive myself for a long long time ... On top, I realized that he was one of the brightest spots of my life ... So, missing him hurt like hell. By doing acts what I felt were exclusively meant for him, I could actually feel the release ... of guilt and loss ... I also had to heal myself spiritually through a healer and somehow when I could connect to his soul, the only thing we ever seem to care were 'are you ok?', 'are you happy?' ... when we both could console each other saying we are safe, we could actually let go of each other with peace ... I smile at his face today without feeling so grossly grieved or hurt ... He is my guiding angel today Divanurse and I am glad he came and still is filling me with how I gotta live ...

You will discover your release at your time and in your way Divanurse ... The love you both have for each other is what it is and none incl. you both can reduce it ... I pray for you Divanurse ... sincerely ...
princessliz wrote: "Although it's difficult today to see beyond the sorrow, may looking back in memory help comfort you tomorrow."

Its good you found someone who understands that you could cry with Divanurse. Its true, sharing lifts the load quite a bit, it has for me. Go at your pace, don't be afraid that healing might have you forget your son. You love him too much to let that happen. ❤ Keep the good memories alive.
MakeSomeoneSmile wrote: Support is a wonderful kindness that can do wonders. May you find strength and comfort on those days that challenge you the most.
starryskies wrote: I'm sorry you're going through such pain. My heart goes out to you. I'm glad you were able to find comfort, support and understanding through a member of your group. Compassionate listening is a wonderful gift.

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