--by John, posted Sep 6, 2006
Well I have some sad news to tell you after my life was going so good. I stop going to G.A. stop calling my sponser and all the beautiful friends I met in the G.A. program and I put God on the side lines. I stayed out there gambling FOR 9 years. When I was in the program my sponser would tell me, "if you go back to gambling it will get worse," and he was so right.
I lost my beautiful wife, and my house, my job, and my car in the driveway. I gave that beautiful life I had all away because I allowed myself to go back to gambling. Thinking I could do it own my own.
Well the good news today is that I forgot to tell you. I have and 8 year old son name Jared. That my wife and I had before we were divorced. He was 2 years old when I went back out to gamble. I am very grateful to God Jared never knew I had a problem with gambling. About 16 months ago Jared came up to me and said "dad nana keeps trying to get me to scratch lottery tickets with her and i keep telling her i dont want to." So I told Jared to tell his mom and he did and he told me nana doesn't ask him anymore. I new his nana had a gambling problem. But I didn't want to tell him that because he would find out all about me. I want to tell you what my son Jared also said to me. He said, "dad I am so glad you dont gamble I hate gambling."
That was my wake up call from God. I am so very grateful today that God gave my son that message to tell me. Because I belive that as Jared got older I would have been teaching him how to gamble with me. Today I am forever grateful to God and my son for giving me a second chance in life. I am now back in G.A. with 16 months free from a bet and taking the program very seriously, as serious as I took my gambling. I am helping the new people that come in to the program in any way I can to make there lives better. I love giving them a smile of my own and welcome them to there first meeting. Then I put a smile card in with the package kit we give to new people at their first meeting.
I want you all to know that I have a wonderful life with my ex/wife today and my beautiful son Jared and most of all with my higher power. Who I chose to call God and I am forever grateful to all of you at Smile for allowing me to smile again and being able to make someone else smile. God bless you.
God Bless you and your faamily
Good for you!.I have a husband who drinks and feels he can stop on his own. He has been in the hospital for pancreatitis 2 times and now he trying again not to drink on his own. Its been 3 weeks and he drinks diffrent flavored sodas and seems happy. He says he feels good and is exercising. I'm so worried he won't be able to handle this on his own. He does say he'll drink a beer at the up coming christmas holiday parties. Please pray for him to be stronger than that. I love him and don't want him to fail again. God Bless you for being strong enough to do what was right for yourself, your child and family. Enjoy a happy life.
I am very happy for you and your son. I know what it's like to have an addiction and how hard it is to shake. You hang in there and keep smiling! Your story was the first one that I have read being brand new to this site. Thank you!