Losing My Fear of Having Enough

--by nflowers1228, posted Sep 13, 2008

I was moved after reading a story on this site about Adam's day in New York. I commented how it's so easy for me to spend $1.50 on soda every day (or more!), but when I walk by homeless people, somehow I fear that if I start to give them money, I won't have enough.

Well today, somehow that fear was lifted. This was not planned, but I had put $3 in my pocket this morning for sodas (it's Friday after all :-) and never got to the place where I buy them. Then, as I was walking to the train, I saw a homeless man ahead and remembered that I had money I could give. So, I took out one of the dollar bills and gave it to him.

I continued walking and came across another one of the regulars who hangs around at the same time and gave him one of the dollars as well.

I have to say it felt good, but I realized that it was not just because I helped someone else. It was also because I let go of my hold on money: the fear that I wouldn't have enough. In giving them the money it made me realize how much the fear of not having enough kept me from helping others who definitely needed it more than me.

It's a difficult situation, because I do walk by these guys almost every day. I'm not sure what will happen the next time I come across them, but I still have one dollar left. And I know there's lots more where that came from, for me and for them :-)

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Posted by nflowers1228
Sep 13, 2008
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Readers Comments

cassiemeadows wrote: Thanks for sharing! its wonderful that Adam's story affected you - it did the same to me. This site is wonderful for that. Thanks for sharing your story. Have a good day! - Cassie

makesomeonesmile wrote: That is wonderful that you took the time to make a difference. Great job and keep it up!

gianjot wrote: This post made me think, fear plays a big part in not giving - but then i thought about what i generally spend money on - and often it is things that i don't need. So much better to give it to someone who needs it. Thank you for the post.

iris wrote: Sometimes, those people who made up as a begger to beg money. But i still put money for them who really needed. Hardly we can buy anything with one dollar. While may be they can eat full. Thanks for sharing!

astrocrazy2005 wrote: Its a very nice post.

Even i used to get the feeling sometimes.

That may be i may not have enough.

irongrace wrote: Thanks for sharing.

sleepytomato wrote: Giving is one of the greatest things we can do.

To recognize that there are others who are in more need than ourselves and to act upon that notion shows true character :)

norman wrote: Thanks for sharing. Attimes, its just the little actions that give the best satisfaction.

SheliaAllen wrote: Giving is a form of blessing, you be a blessing to people and if you have been lead to do so, then don't hold back, be a blessing to someone today and everyday if the spirit take you there to do so.

barbo wrote: Thank you for your post. It reminds me that there is plenty for all. God is a god of great plenty! I have also had the same problem with feeling like i never have enough money. I am trying to give more and let money flow through through me. It always feels so good to give! You have been a blessing.

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