Today (6/10/06) opening up my daily email (to find the Smile newsletter) couldn't have come at a better time. My fiance is currently overseas and the last few days I have been having a really difficult time. Today we talked online and our conversation was fine until I started to bring up the 'colors' for the wedding. It was time for him to go to bed and I was in tears just out of frustration but its obvious that its not the 'colors' that I am frustrated with but its just everything. He's been gone since last August and its very possible he won't be home until next February and it's been too long.
He left the conversation after he told me he loved me and for the 5th time becuase he had kept telling me he had to go and instead I kept going on and on about everything. It's important to me that I tell him I love him when he signs off from the computer but today he didn't give me that chance. And after reading about being grateful and thanking those that have stuck by us and helped us, I'd have to say I'm pretty lucky to have some of the people in my life that I do.
I had been crying for about a half hour when I opened the email and it made me stop and realize that becasue of the important people in my life, I've made it almsot a year without my best friend and the love of my life at my side. I also realized that I never let those people know how much they mean to me and how much their support has kept me going. After I send this comment, I will be starting on some thank you cards to those who have been keeping my spirits high these last few months and of course I will be sending one to my fiance as well. He has helped me too. His being overseas has showed me that I can be strong and independent and I am thankful that he is strong enough to be there for me during those moments where I need him. He is in the situation where it is me that should be there for him right now but in reality, we are helping each other get through the seperation in many ways even when what is going on in our lives is stressful as well. I am so incredibly thankful that the email that came today was one that I needed to recieve.
Thank You.
He left the conversation after he told me he loved me and for the 5th time becuase he had kept telling me he had to go and instead I kept going on and on about everything. It's important to me that I tell him I love him when he signs off from the computer but today he didn't give me that chance. And after reading about being grateful and thanking those that have stuck by us and helped us, I'd have to say I'm pretty lucky to have some of the people in my life that I do.
I had been crying for about a half hour when I opened the email and it made me stop and realize that becasue of the important people in my life, I've made it almsot a year without my best friend and the love of my life at my side. I also realized that I never let those people know how much they mean to me and how much their support has kept me going. After I send this comment, I will be starting on some thank you cards to those who have been keeping my spirits high these last few months and of course I will be sending one to my fiance as well. He has helped me too. His being overseas has showed me that I can be strong and independent and I am thankful that he is strong enough to be there for me during those moments where I need him. He is in the situation where it is me that should be there for him right now but in reality, we are helping each other get through the seperation in many ways even when what is going on in our lives is stressful as well. I am so incredibly thankful that the email that came today was one that I needed to recieve.
Thank You.
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- Posted by Samantha
- Jun 11, 2006
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